All alone...

I'm alone,
Yeah, I don't know if I can face the night,
I'm in tears, and the crying that I do is for you
Angel- Aerosmith

Although staying alone has many, many benefits, there is one downside. One VERY big downside. And that is loneliness.
There are days when you just wake up feeling that way, or you open your door and know that theres nobody waiting for you- it can get so unbearable.

Days like these cannot be described to somebody who has not experienced it . You try to keep yourself busy doing meaningless household chores, but you just can't focus. Your mind is wandering in a million different directions- and the worst thing you can do, but can't help yourself from doing- is thinking back to days when you were with with your family or loved ones. And here you are, all alone, with nobody to talk to and nothing to do with yourself, except feel pathetic.

You can't do a damn thing about it except feel more and more depressed and think of people and places and desperately wish you were there. And of course, sit in a corner and sob for something you know you can't have. The day and night feels so much longer- you can't wait to get through them and yet you know that there are so many hours left where you're left alone with your destructive thoughts. And it just gets worse and worse...

Don't know what I'm gonna do,
About this feeling inside,
Yes it's true, loneliness took me for a ride...
Angel -Aerosmith